Weight Watchers Update...

I caught part of an episode of Modern Family this week in which Cameron and Mitchell were on a juice fast.  Mitchell narrated while Cameron got to show all the phases of dieting.  The ones I remember clearly were the despair and anger phases.

These resonated with me because since I have started Weight Watchers, I have been a daily emotional mess regarding my relationship with food and my weight.

Eating my 18th salad in two weeks, I get angry and tired of eating it.  I want something different.  I am depressed because the scale is not moving fast enough for me.  I have also been getting some random energy, usually when I have no time/place to expel it so I start yelling, singing, car dancing and talking at a speed that would make you think I've been coked up my whole life.

I miss all the fried food, bread, cheese and fatty meats that I used to love to eat.  I hate whole wheat because it's chewy and never gets crunchy.  I have been wary of venturing out of my comfort zone with food because I am scared of how much points I might use.
I am mourning the self I used to be - the self that didn't care what I ate, and obviously, this self went overboard.

All in all, this weight loss is very important to me.  And I have seen results - which is awesome!  I lost 6 lbs the first week, and 2.4 the second.  I then gained 1.2 lbs the third week and got pissed - then got on my treadmill. I lost 4.2 this week, and have lost 11.4 in total.  WW is actually telling me I am losing to fast - what?  I am getting very close to moving down a pant size, at least in my work pants.  Jeans may take a bit longer.

Also, Olivia has more energy and is losing some weight, which is so awesome to me, I almost want to cry (see - emotional mess).

As these food choices become my life choices and the weight continues to come off, I am hoping the emotionality of all this gets somewhat steady again.

I'll check in, in a month or so to let you know how this is going still. 

Thank you to everyone that showed such awesome support to me when I first posted.  You guys are so wonderful and I am super lucky to have you all in my life!