So, I've been waiting to write this post for awhile. I told myself I would write this story when I hit a goal. I hit that goal (later) and now get to tell my story.
This necklace was a gift to me. For Christmas, about 3 years ago, I was given this pretty necklace by my brother. It says something on it about sisters, and my little sister was given the same necklace. (I know the picture is blurry, but the necklace is small, understated and special.)
When I opened the gift, I remember thinking that it was pretty. A cute little necklace. But, there was a nagging little piece of me, wondering.
Would it fit?
This may not be a normal thought, at least when it comes to necklaces. But, my neck was fat. Most necklaces like this would look like a choker on me. And, well, it's obviously not a choker. I started to get angry. Not angry at myself (logical choice), but angry at the necklace for not fitting, and angry at my brother for giving me this gift that just threw back in my face how fat I was and how nothing pretty fit me. Instead of feeling bad about my weight, or deciding to change, I took offense to the gift. I may have said something snarky to my brother about the necklace as well, trying to make him feel bad for giving me this gift that triggered my insecurity, and made it glaringly obvious that I had a weight problem. It's always something like this that peels back the veil of denial and shows you reality. Reality was a problem.
I have now lost 25 lbs. Oh, yeah, you read that right, 25 lbs. I have also lost 10% of my body weight.
And now, unless I'm wearing a turtle neck, I wear that necklace. It fits. It lays exactly where it's supposed to. It's pretty. And my brother hasn't given me many gifts, probably because of the way I reacted to this gift. I really love this necklace. And I love that I can wear it now, and every day. Thank you, Derrick for the pretty necklace and please know that I treasure all the gifts you have given me.
And now, some pictures of 25 lb. lighter me (Mia felt it necessary to join in the pictures with me):
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I'm linking up with the ever popular Grumpy Grateful Mom for Good News Friday.
Congratulations on your weight loss. You go girl!!! That necklace looks so pretty on you.
ReplyDeleteThat's awesome Tara! And the necklace looks fabulous.
ReplyDeletepretty, necklace, pretty little girl, and very pretty momma! visiting you from grumpy grateful bloghop!
ReplyDeleteI'm so glad you added your good news today. Your story brought tears to my eyes. I hope your brother gets to read this soon!
ReplyDeleteCongratulations on your 25 lbs!!! And the necklace is very pretty on you. So is your cute little pink sidekick. :)
What a beautiful story! I think the necklace is beautiful and has such meaning behind in in so many ways now. Congratulations on your weight loss, that is a big deal - you look great!!!
ReplyDeleteI'm visiting from Good News Friday but love your blog and that you are so real - I will be back!!
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Congratulations!!!! Yay!! I'm so happy that you've lost 25lbs - you look fabulous!
ReplyDeleteI have been on very high doses of steroids for the last year for my illness, and my face and neck (and the rest of me, to be honest) are huge. I could totally identify with how you felt at the necklace. Don't beat yourself up too much for the way you reacted...just treasure that necklace that you can now wear and looks great on you!
That is definitely some good news!
Good good for you!! How awesome. And that is a huge deal and something to definitely celebrate!
ReplyDeleteFABULOUS!!!! Amazing what a little thing like a necklace can teach us. Congrats.
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