Forgive me if I go astray...

Tonight, I have decided that the nightly journal be done electronically.  So, I hauled my computer up to my bed, and am journal-ing as I hear the dishwasher running downstairs, Mia finally sleeping and Olivia finally quiet after a huge shower meltdown tonight.

Done.

That's how I'm feeling about today.  I'm tired.  But, I haven't blogged in awhile and I feel bad.  I know I have a few readers (whom I love and thank you for coming back to read about my craziness), and I feel a little lost when my regular bloggers just stop for awhile.  I'm sorry for being gone.  

It's not that I haven't wanted to blog.  It's not that I haven't had stories to tell and pictures to share (pictures are uploading as we speak.  READ: multi-tasking).  It's that I have been busy.  I know, I know.  We're all busy, Tara.  Yes, and with that business, sometimes, I just get too tired to sit down and actually write things down.  (READ: watches TV instead of writing - Lazy).

Now that I'm actually blogging, I'm a little worried that I may run off on tangents, or just follow my own trains of thoughts out of stations and into completely new and unexplored stations.  Forgive me if that happens.

Mia - taking her 32 lbs and walking away from me.

One of the things I've been meaning to write about is my ongoing battle to drop weight.  I'm down 40 lbs now.  That's right, 40.  It's almost 50!  Do you know what that means to me?  It means that I have lost more weight than my youngest weighs.  It means that I can cross my legs again.  It means that I can leave them crossed comfortably and under tables.  It means that my legs are beginning to be nice shapely legs again (instead of overstuffed sausages).  It means that I bought a size 16 swimsuit for the first time since I don't even know when.  And thank goodness that it's a swimsuit and stretchy.  It really only fits my chest and is rather skin-hugging every where else (READ: no boobs).  Also, the bottoms are shorts and I'm not so sure I can sit down in them.  But - the point is, I bought a swimsuit, and it doesn't look horrible on me.  And I will rock that suit on vacation, if not before, while standing up.

I'm actually really happy with myself right now.  I've been watching what I eat, tracking, weighing, measuring, portioning, sticking to fruits and veggies, as well as being more active.  Now that the weather has calmed down a bit and we can go out again, the girls and I have been out pretty much every night.  Either we bike ride (Mia and her extra 30 lbs) on my bike, or we walk (Mia and her extra 30 lbs on my shoulders).  Even if I'm slow, at least I'm getting out there and dragging my kids out with me.

In other news, my mom and sister are on a road trip from Mississippi to Seattle as my mom has landed a job in Seattle and is moving there.  Cari is going to "help her move" (hang with friends and check out Seattle), and will be coming back to Mississippi in a month or so to start college at Ole Miss.  Tony and I have always wanted to see the Pacific Northwest - now, will we finally get a chance, and try to make it a priority?

Also, my brother Derrick is back in New York.  We are trying to get him to move back to Chicago.  I miss him.  Like, a lot.  He is a super fun person to be around.  Amazingly creative and gives me crap just as much as he can talk seriously with me.  I know I probably still won't see him much, but if he's here, there's always a chance that we can make a random weekend that much more fun by visiting him in the city.

He's single ladies!

As I mentioned before, that I was loading pictures, I still have to tell you about the Wolf Ranch Baby Shower.  It will have to wait though.  I'm anticipating the birth of this newbie (on my birthday) sometime soon.  I am so very excited for this baby.  I am excited to watch the transformation of my friend from non-mom to new-mom.  This is going to be a fun year!