Blogging as therapy...

I haven't been writing in here as much as I wanted lately.  You see, this blog has been evolving for me.  In the four years that it has been up, it started as a way to keep in touch with family and to display pictures of my kids and how they were growing.  To give the necessary updates to family and friends, without the need to be on the phone multiple hours a day/week, telling and re-telling the same stories.  Not that I don't love to be on the phone, I'm just working with less time every day to do all that needs to be done.  I'm sure you know how it is.  :)

Back to my point, the blog has become in the last year or so a way for me to release some of the stresses that I feel, or talk about my feelings or thoughts.  I've found that in my grown up life there is very little of talking about these things going on - but way too much thinking about things going on.  With all those thoughts floating around in my head, I can get pretty stressed, stop sleeping, and generally tie myself up in knots.  Thankfully, this blog and a journal have been helping me to untangle the mess inside.

There are still times though, when I get overwhelmed.  When I don't have Tara time and I start to lose myself again.  When the only time I have is on my commutes to and from work and I start to think about things and work through them.  That is generally not enough for me, these one hour drives to and from work.  It's not the time that's not enough, it's the action.  Mulling and driving is not the stress relief I need.  I need to take those thoughts and write them down, so I can see where my thoughts are really taking me.  They have direction, but I need a way to decipher that.

These past few months have been stressful with surgeries, birthdays, holidays, family parties, planning vacation, friend time, family visits, family time, dance recital, end of school, start of summer, home redecoration and work craziness to boot.  Right now, is the first time I have sat down and done something productive at home in a few weeks. 

This craziness does not seem to be relenting and I may not be here as much as I want in the next few weeks/months.  I wanted to say thank you for reading this blog.  It means so much to me that you catch up with my craziness.  I will try to be here more, but please be patient with me.  I know that when I'm back, I'll have some stories for you.  I mean, I was at a Wolf Ranch baby shower this past weekend.  I'm sure you want to see pictures of that. :)