Quiet...

It may be the time of the year.  The time when the leaves change colors.  Your shorts go back into hiding.  The days get shorter.  The sleeves get longer.  The layers get thicker.

I've been quiet lately.  Quiet internally.  Quiet externally.  Quiet on the "inter-webs" as a co-worker would say.

I've been contemplating.  Thinking.  A week ago, internally, I was a riot.  I literally thought that my head might explode if my mind would not shut off.

But, my mind has slowed down.  I am not overwhelmed by my thoughts, by my feelings, by anger, by depression.

I am happy, to an extent.  I am making changes.  Looking to get past some things that have been holding me back.  Looking forward to changes that are overdue.  Changes that could change life.

What things have I been thinking about?  Important things like, what I want to do when I grow up.  I want to have a career, but I don't know what I want that career to be.  Also, what are some new dreams?  Many of my dreams have come to fruition.  What are my new dreams?  Or, is it my new dream to help others achieve their dreams?  To help them through transitions?

I've been thinking about less important things, such as the possibility of taking a vacation - alone. 
Doing something I've always wanted to do, going somewhere I've always wanted to go.  But doing it without kids, without a husband, selfishly, for me. 

Even contemplating what it means that we are here, with intermingled lives.  How we impact each other.  How we don't.  What is the meaning of us living?  How do you make your mark?

If you've missed me, that's where I am.  Inside.  Introverting.  Thinking.  Preparing.  Hopefully, I'll be back soon.  Blogging.  Telling you all about it on Facebook, on Twitter.  Picturing it on Instagram, or Pinning it on Pinterest.

Soon.